“Heaven gained one but I lost. I’m struggling to forgive and understand you God”– BBNaija star, Alex

Emotional Farewell messages have continued to pour in for Big Brother Naija Reality star, Rico Swavey, who passed away on Thursday, October 13
The 29-year-old star kicked the bucket after being involved in a ghastly car crash that left him on life support since Tuesday, October 11.
Taking to social media to mourn his tragic passing, his colleague, Alex Unusual, in a lengthy post on her Instagram page, expressed her anger at God for failing to answer all her prayers for Rico while he was battling between life and death in the hospital.
Alex recounted her last moments with Rico at the hospital before he gave up the ghost, and declared that the bible needs to be edited.
She said she had serious faith for the first time and prayed with so much hope that Rico would be back on his feet soon, but yet he died despite all her prayers.
In the post, Alex said Rico’s death has left her so broken that she’s struggling to forgive and understand God.
“Patrick, if I didn’t tap you numerous times this morning, call your name, beg on my knees and you refused to say a word to me, I would have said, “don’t worry, it’s one of Rico’s jokes”.
I know you read all my messages so if you see this one, know that your six foot Amazon is broken. I begged you, I begged God, I promised you I’ll stay strong and shed no tear last night. Rico, I actually kept to my promise. I didn’t cry, I opened that group you wanted, I felt your body and it was warm, I watched you breathe and I was sure you’ll open your eyes properly soon and say “baby girl, wagwan”.
Do I question God ? Infact God!!! You let this happen? What did you say about faith because I’m sure I had serious faith!!! I know there is a reason but do you understand that you broke my fragile heart to pieces? I can’t explain this pain. I begged you!!! I did!!!. I told you I’ll give anything!!! I promised to never miss my prayers again. I’m struggling to forgive and understand you God! Please help me reduce this chest pain I feel. My head feels heavy. I feel dizzy!!! You hurt me so much!! I’m mad at you!! Why did you let me make all the promises I made to Rico last night if you were going to take him ?
Heaven gained one but I lost. I’m not sure if I understand what faith is because for the first time, I had so much faith and no doubt but It didn’t work. The Bible needs to be edited. Oh death! You did this one and it hit way more than you even planned it. Weldone.
I know Rico will be upset seeing me like this so I’ll hold it together. I shot a whole movie and I became the character I wrote about!. I should have picked that call. I should have called back!! I failed once again!! I’m a horrible person!! Terrible!!! I can’t forgive myself.
Please God, take care of my friend the way he takes care of me. He loves to cook, please let him do it. He loves to sing too and he loves to look fresh. Don’t let him drive ever again. Don’t leave him by himself. Please make him happy. I miss him but I have no choice. Please protect his family. I know I’m talking to you even though I’m mad at you but I’ll get over it.” She wrote.